Pain Medication

I found some lyrics that I was working on sometime last year, I believe.  I decided I'll push them out, since I'm in a mood to release some of my unreleased writings.

"I need an injection of pain and rejection;

My emotional suicide therapy.

See I can't feel pain if I can't feel love,

so it turns out I'd rather be numb.

The pain must destroy me,

Nothing less than unbearable.

A fatal stab wound that burns to heal,

I think I'm dying, but I'm somehow alive.

With every new wound, I lose more of me.

The pain is so common, I forgot how to feel.

A brokenness so bitter never tasted so sweet,

I've become nothing. Why would I care?

I look around in apathy, ecstatic: what is this?!

It might appear I'm free; yes indeed! who was she?

But then something happened; something cracked, and it broke.

The wall of my protection!  The memory again now, free...

I remembered to remember, that I never forgot.

If I never forgot, then the pain never stopped.

I'll never forget you, and this love won't die,

Forever and always.. I'm sorry, goodbye."