Internalize

It feels as if I'm unable to tap into my own mind; even worse than writer's block is when you feel you're no longer capable of writing.

I have a condition known as Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.  It makes it very difficult for me to do the things that I love; one of which being writing.

Any time that I try to think of an idea, or ponder on a complex or emotional concept, I feel the thought snatched away from me, and I simply sit idle, wasting time away hoping that if I can just find 'that perfect place' to write, or those 'perfect conditions' then I'll be able to think.

I used to write all the time in school.  Now I have idle time in front of a computer at work for the greater majority of the day.  Why can't I seem to focus anymore?

My hands are beginning to hurt when I type, too.  Maybe this is indeed the fall of my creative prestige.

Although, I know many of the world's most brilliant people and the best creative minds typically fought through some sort of disability.

So maybe this isn't an end at all... but rather a beginning.

Never give up.